Fresh start

Dear Diary by Tapps Games.

I'm going to start a diary again because writing is said to look most like thinking. And I'd like to reflect on what happens to me.

Today I've come across a moral dilemma and I’ve learned a few things.

First of all, I should speak less, keep personal information to myself, especially if my interlocutor isn’t someone close to me. I’m considering cultivating myself in order to talk about ideas, like the greatest, instead of wordly stories and gossip, that people can use against me.

Yes, my friends, you can’t trust almost anyone. On the other hand, and going a bit batty, I see myself a little like Freddie Mercury in Bohemian Rhapsody: eccentric, uninhibited and irreverent (or just plain stupid, I don’t know)… however, in the end he paid for his excesses, his deviations from the rule, and he felt really lonely. At the same time, he had the incredible ability to move the masses. I think that one extreme motivated him to reach the opposite one, just like introverted people can make great actors after overcoming mini challenges to open up during their training. If you are already extroverted, you might not have that new need created.

I was thinking of re-reading what I’ve just written, but it could turn out to be more interesting and fresh to leave it like this. In the future I will certainly revisit it.

To tell the truth, by writing I feel that I could ease my need to talk excessively, and so I would avoid going too far. I have a lot, a lot to say… at last, and sometimes open wound and open air situations seem uncomfortable to express myself. Sometimes I get tongue-tied, my grace starts to decline, I lose the thread,… But sometimes I manage to build a well-structured discourse, I must admit.

 Occasionally I publish Whatsapp statuses because I really need to tell something, but I don’t want to say it openly either. So now, while I’m writing this, I realize that a diary could be what I need...

And reading and learning more. To be able to do what is fairer.

Reflecting.

Without coming to be too hard on myself.